Its been 5 years  / Brittany Edgin (friend-exgirlfriend)
I remember when I was called from a friend to relate the news to me. I had moved away. I couldnt make it home
  Chad you are in my thoughts constantly. I visited your grave saw how your friends my friends left stuff for you and all i could leave were words and tears on the wind. I hope they found you. Once I had been the receiver of your wonderful words love notes poems and lyrics. Once i had been the receiver of your wonderful voice. Once I had been the receiver of your hugs your kisses your long looks..I did love you. I met your mom once maybe twice. I liked her instantly. Melanie-I only wish I'd have gotten to really know you.
  Chad-you had been a good part of my life in high school. You made me be free. and I loved it. I loved you. Chad Randall Miller- I miss you and you are constantly in my thoughts. I think of you at certain times of the day and specific times at night. Listening to your music I missed your voice. Im glad I hadnt forgotten what you sounded like.  Im so glad to have finally found this place. I wanted you to know how sorry I was that I didnt try harder to stay in the group of friends and hang out. Im sitting here remembering you sitting at my table in my house talking with me and my mom and you were so cool about it. You drank your coffee and you smoked your cigarette and even though my sisters thought it strange they liked you. I liked you. I miss you.
Goodnight Chad. I hope you are at peace.
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Death claims the best of us young  / Natalie Blaylock (Fan)

I never knew Chad... but in a way, I kinda did. I knew him through his music. His lyrics were grotesque yet beautiful at the same time. I related to him when I was merely the age of 12. Although young, I understood. I knew what he was feeling and I felt it too. I wish I could've had the pleasure of knowing him. He reminds me so much of me that its scary.

I wish the best to the remaining family members and Chad the happiest of everlasting dreams.

RIP

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...keeping him alive...  / Joshua Shores
I thought it was time for me to finally leave my thoughts on Chad Miller. I never knew Chad, never talked to him. Only heard him mention Clinical Torment and say a few things to this person or that on Soulseek several years back. After I heard a single song, I fell in love. I remember that first song was Chemical Seduction. that was about 8 years ago. I haven't stopped listening to his music ever since and it has been playing continually at my parties and in my car for the past 8 years. He is now pretty well known and liked in my little town of red bluff, ca. I will continue playing his music for a very, very long time. I will always mention his name whenever possible. I will always do my part in keeping him alive.

I didn't even know he had died until late 2005. when I found out I felt something strange inside, something I didn't recognize, non-the-less expect to feel about someone I hadn’t even known. It was like devastation, but stranger and with a mix of sorrow and loss. Like a piece of the world had fallen off and just floated away. We lost something magnificent with his death, something most of us will never bear witness to. He was a single petal on a rose bush. It’s amazing, the mark he has made on me.

You will be missed a great deal. Even by many, many people whom you never even knew. Close

It's taken over three years for me to get here.  / Kelly Smith (He owed my heart )

I met Chad through Brahm. They went to VU together and Brahm started bringing Chad to hang out and party. I thought Chad didn't like me for the longest time, or at least didn't really notice me...after a while, he warmed up to me and we started talking all the time on the net when he wasn't in Terre Haute, or on the phone. Everytime he would come to town I would get really excited. One night, when we were really drunk, I couldn't find Chad. He was hiding in the closet crying. (if he knew I was telling you this he would probably be mad...) I stayed with him for ever trying to make him feel better and we ended up staying there for the night. He told me he loved me and not just as a friend. That was it. One look in those eyes of his when he said that...I was hooked. I've been in love with him ever since.....and I won't ever stop. When things got bad with us for a while, the distance, breaking up, Suzi, everything....I knew everything would work itself out. Right before he died.....everything was suppose to be fixed....things between us were getting back to the way they were...everything was going to be perfect.

It hurts now...just as much as it did the night I found out...it was two days after I had just seen him....or maybe three....

I just wanted to say I love you...more then anything. You know that. And I still wish Sven could have happened...I wish you would come home.

That's all.

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For all intense on purpose(s)  / Pram Maven (N/A)
I discovered Chad's music through a friend, and was immediately touched by it. The kid was a gothic industrial natural, and I've been asked to remix some of his songs. I'd actually like to cover one of them, if it's alright with whoever owns his catalog. The one I'm particularly interested in covering is Monochrome. After hearing it only once, I knew every note. That doesn't happen often. Close

I'm here for you  / Amy Small (Randy's neighbor )
Melani,
  I use to live 2 doors down from you and Chad. I still remember that horrible night. Waking up to lights and a scream. I am so sorry you had to lose Chad that way. My sister was killed in a car accident 11-06-00. I know what you are feeling. If you need to talk or cry, I'm here for you. If you want to talk to someone in your shoes, my mother would be more than happy to talk with you or just listen. Feel free to contact me if you feel you can or want to. angelamy77@sbcglobal.net
My heart goes out to you and I am here for you. Chad was a great person. I know I personally never judged him on appearance. He was one person that would always say hi if I said hi. Close

Happy birthday Chad  / Loni Wendt (Angel Mom )
Happy birthday Chad!! I know you are having a wonderful party in heaven with all our angels. I will light my candle tonight in honor of your birthday. Your family is in my thoughts and prayers. Close

Merry Christmas  / Dawn Daniel (Angel Friend )

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Condolence / Mikeman1 Mikeman1

Thanks for sharing the wonderful memories of your boys. Im sorry for your loss. 
Mikeman1

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Thinking of you  / Teri Drebit (Angel Mom Of Jaime)
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For you Chad  / Teri Drebit (Angel Mom Of Jaime)

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ROCK ON CHAD  / CHERI BROOKS FROM OHIO (ANGELS)
ROCK ON CHAD LET YOUR MUSIC BE SO LOUD SO YOUR MOM CAN HEAR YOU ....PLAY CHAD!!!I certainly hope there is plenty of music in heaven. I think you could spend eternity singing and dancing without a single complaint!! Rock on, CHAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Close

I Miss You  / Zach Fuori (Friend)
it's sad to know i knew a side of you not too many ever got a chance to see. you were a fucking amazing person. if it weren't for you i wouldn't be the person i am today. i remember sharing stories with you late at night and sharing musical ideas, etc. you were one of the only people who understood me. we never met in person but the moments we shared on aim over and over again were surreal. it's disappointing in a way that you and i never got a chance to record those songs together.

i'm getting that syringe tattoo with your name and clinical torment along the sides of it. i miss you man. even though i know you're raising hell wherever you are. Close

Blessings / Donna Mother Of Christina Valle
I am so sorry to hear about your loss.You have not only lost Chad,but you have also lost Bradley.As a mother who has lost her own daughter just 8 month's ago I,can feel some of your pain.I have been through alot myself,but I can not imagine your pain.Please take time for yourself to heal.Others will tell you too go on,and you will get through it.And it will get easier once you get pass all the other.Just know that this is a special site and I am hear if you need me.We all need each other,that is why the Lord lead us here.Blessings to you and your family as each day goes by. Close

So sorry for your loss.  / Debra Reagan Clint's Mom (another grieving mother )
Your son was so much more than the way in which he died. It sounds as though his brother was not himself at that time. I am so sorry for all that your family is going through at this time. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Thank you for sharing a part of your story with us. Close

You remind me...  / Samantha (passerby)
  Looking at your page and hearing your music, so reminds me of my best friend Matt. He died the same age as you, and had the same tastes and style. I think Matt and Chad would have been friends. Maybe even have formed a crazy band. Take care of Matt for me Chad. Rock out together where ever you are. Close

i found this and thought of you  / Cheri Brooks From Ohio (throu angels )
Found A Way
by Drake Bell
I never thought that it'd be so simple but
I found a way, I found a way
I always thought that it'd be too crazy but
I found a way, I found a way

If you open up your mind
See what's inside
It's gonna take some time, to realize
But if you look inside, I'm sure you'll find
Over your shoulder you know that, I told you
I'll always be pickin' you up when you're down
So just turn around

Now that I know that anything's possible
I found a way, I found a way
No one can break what is so unbreakable
I found a way, I found a way

If you open up your mind
See what's inside
It's gonna take some time, to realize
But if you look inside, I'm sure you'll find
Over your shoulder you know that I told you
I'll always be pickin' you up when you're down
So just turn around

No one cares
What you give
You know you gotta live like you wanna live
When it's time
To be free
You know you gotta be what you wanna be

If you open up your mind
See what's inside
It's gonna take some time, to realize
But if you look inside, I'm sure you'll find
Over your shoulder you know that I told you
I'll always be pickin' you up when you're down
So just turn around
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Never to be Forgotten  / Sister Of An Angel

"He shall not grow old, as we that are left grow old: Age shall not weary him nor the years condemn. At the going down of the sun, and in the morning, We will remember him." 



Chad, soar high.  Enjoy the band, the could jumping and raindrop rides.

The music goes on, I know you playing with some of the very best.
Only the carraige has expired that has carried you in this part of the realm, the journey goes on.

To your mother, my respect and admiration, the pain of lossing not one but both of your sons, and to continue to go on, much love to you. You will give great things to this world, through the love of your son Chad.

Sister of a Musician,
Sister of an Angel,

www.jimmyg.memory-of.com 


ONE LOVE

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Love is always conncected!  / Ashley's Mom (Sue)
HI Chad,

Here are two hearts, one is yours, the other is your Mother's.  Love is always conncected; it doesn't know how to disconnect!



God Bless and Comfort You
Ashley's Mom 
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